WHAT WOULD JESUS DO!!!!!?

So me and my mother don't get alone, she has a lot of resentment towards me even though i don't aganist her anymore , I let go all the wrong she has done. I gave it to god, she has mentally abused and reject abandon me but i have gotten over it. she says when she come around me she feels weird and she thinks that i don't want to be around her, she says she feels like i act uppity , she see's just my flaws like she has done all my life. i'm tired of trying to fight for us 2 be kool me and my mom are so different. ive been rejected by both my parent most of my life that its hard 2 have a relationship with my little sister because i don't know how to love her plus my moms acts like i hate my sister which i don't its just that I'm jealous and sadden that Ive never had a relationship like that with my mom or dad. so i don't mean to be jealous but i am , but its not a jealousy of anger it a sad one because i missed out on that so i don't really come around that much or i don't take my sister out because , her and my mom bond is so close that it feel weird plus how can i be close 2 my sister and force myself and the foundation is rocky , which is my mother , What does this look like to you guys? and me and my mother have tried to work out and talk out or problems for years , i told her how i felt she told me how she feels but its still weird it still the same thing what should i do???