Someone please explain?

Hiya, you not alone, so don't think you are, we never know what life is going to throw at us, and some of us can deal with the stress of life better than others, your eating and self harming is your way of saying, " i cannot deal with this and need help", have you been referred to a mental health team yet, if not go and ask your gp to refer you, There's help out there, sometimes you just need to use your voice, take care. and stay well.