I had a hallucination with a high fever, what does it mean?

Wow, this sounds awesome. When you say you had a profound healing from this experience, I believe you. I'm not going to get all weird and psychic about it, because you don't sound like you're looking for a weird and psychic answer :) The Native Americans were a symbol for you, presented by your higher self (or your conscience, if you prefer), and representing people who are perceived by some as being beyond the material world, and having a higher form of spirituality, and representing a more "natural" way of life. A circle is a symbol for completion, and from the sound of all this, it sounds like you have come "full circle". You understood and acknowledged that you needed spiritual, as well as physical healing. The food represents food for thought, and when the Shaman fed you, your higher consciousness was offering you needed spiritual nourishment. On some level, you may have been symbolically "chewing over" some thoughts about your life, maybe reviewing your life. Based on the imagery with the Ipod, and some of your other comments, I'm getting an impression that the way you lived your life before this was based on trying to find fulfillment through material gains. ( Ipod = symbol for trendy, expensive things, status symbols) Yet somewhere deep down, you know this isn't the right way for you to live, and when you were lying there in fever, you were confronted with this. It isn't important whether you choose to view the Native Americans as spiritual guides from beyond, or just as symbols of spiritual healing created by your own self. You can choose to believe this was a message from God if you want, or you can choose to believe the message came from your own self. It isn't really important what you choose to believe about what these symbols actually are, or whether something supernatural happened to change your life. The important thing is, whatever the source, you have received a deep and fundamental change in your outlook and future growth something along the lines of what happened to Scrooge in a Christmas Carol, was he really visited by ghosts, or was he just dreaming all night? Who knows? The important thing is that he reviewed his life, he discovered where he went wrong, and woke up the next morning ready to change it. You indicate that you've done things you're not proud of in your life, and ask what you should do now that you've had this experience. The most important thing to do now is this: be in the now. When you wake in the morning, remember that you have a chance to do better this time, and make better use of your day than you have in the past. Keep your focus on moving forward. You mention you have some things to make up for. If there is a way for you to make amends to those you have harmed along the way, then perhaps it would help you to make a "My name is Earl" list, and cross a few things off of it. It would help to strengthen your commitment to turning over a new leaf, and help you to feel better about your life if you can make amends, and come away from it feeling like you've learned something in the experience. If there are some things on the list that you could truly never make amends for, then try to accept that you will never be able to change it, come away from it with a lesson in mind, and put closure on it. Most importantly though, is to get up in the morning resolved to make something more of your life than what you did in the past, and follow through on that, committed to finding out what kind of life will make you truly happy, and setting about to make it a reality for yourself, and those you love. Good luck to you....